Random thoughts (really needing to just get stuff off of my chest....)

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Gouls and Goblins...

Today is my favorite holiday of the year. I love seeing all of the little kids dressed up out begging for candy. Althought this year may be hard. V came home sick from school yesterday. I am not sure if she is going to be able to go. I am hoping so. She slept all night so that's a good sign.

Our family has decided to go with a theme. V is Princess Leia. J is Darth Vadar and I am Queen Amadala. Should be fun. J and I are ready for the school party! I borrowed a few ideas from the internet and my neighbor is letting me use her pin the nose on the pumpkin game. FEEEWWW!!

J has surgery on his finger tomorrow. They are going to remove the nail bed and all. This means that he just won' t have a fingernail. Poor boy. But I hope it gets rid of this MRSA. If not they will chop it off. I think that's what he would like them to do now- he has been on antibiotics for almost 8 months now.

That's it for today. Have a safe Halloween. And if you get a take 5 bar- SAVE IT FOR ME!! :)

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Cracked windshield

Doesn't it always seem that when things are going along fine BAM! WHACK! there's a crack in the windshield... Well, that's what happened....

Really it's not that dramatic although I do really have a cracked windshield in my new car. What's up with that?? J says it is because it is a JEEP and their windshields are not on a real angle so the rocks just pop them a lot. I will have to ask my other JEEP people this questions. Speaking of- my favorite JEEP family is coming to our town this weekend. H, J, M, J and their dog Maggie are going to be here for a few days. I am so excited to see them.

And my super secret surpirse is only a few weeks away!! Can't wait for that!!

I went to bed at 8:15 last night and slept until 7:30 this morning. This baby is draining. I would have to say that I am starting to get a bit of a pooch. I may have said this before. I have now gained a total of 7 lbs on my scales... Funny how much that feels like. I feel like a lard butt already.

J has to have surgery on his finger again!! They are going to just take his nail bed out so he won't ever have a fingernail. I think he is glad this is finally going to happen. It has been such a pain in the butt for him. Hopefully that will solve it.

It continues to rain here in South East Michigan... muddy dog prints all over.

V has her Halloween Party on Tuesday. Not sure what to do. Any suggestions? I am planning it for her classroom!! I am not sure how many activites I may need to do but holy cow it is right around the corner.

V started piano lessons last night. She loves it!! I can barely keep her off of the piano. It was the first thing she did when she woke up today.

Added some pictures. Sorry about the stretch marks but hey- remember how much I weighed when I had V...

Monday, October 23, 2006

Which came first??

Hives or anxiety? I believe for me the last few days it began with anxiety (of unknown origin) then leading now to hives EVERYWHERE!! I am completely covered with them and it is driving me crazy! I have taken Benadryl but I am still looking at this quarter sized hives... This baby is doing a job on my body.

My new car is still AWOL. I was supposed to get it today but I have a loaner now. The guy (you know the sleazy car salesman) said it would be here by the end of the night. Well, they close in a hour and 20 minutes. I am not feeling lucky with this deal...

Work was chaotic today. Moving all of our stuff. Tomorrow will be better as I will be able to settle in more to my space. Or at least have a space.

I was so hungry today. I don't remember some of these things with my pregnancy with V.

Off to itch.... and hopefully get my darn car.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Hospice care for my car...

Well, I decided against it. I had a cracked manifold. Did I spell that correctly? It would have been a pretty penny to fix along with the chance of other things going wrong. The poor girl had 114,000 miles on her. She did me well. So today we went out and got a new car. I won't have it until Monday but we got one- thanks to a friend who has some knowledge and benefits... We decided on a Jeep commander. I like it. But I liked my free car better. J is beside himself because we didn't get a hybrid. I understand his point. But they are even more expensive and all I have read about them say they are not all that much better- Yet! Which is why we only got a 24 month lease. This way we can get a hybrid in a few years.

My mom and dad are coming tomorrow. I am happy to see them. I wish we lived closer. They are going to be putting up their home for sale. Remember they bought that lake house last year. Well, this home, that they are selling, is the place I have called "home" my entire life. I am a bit freaked out. I can't imagine someone else sleeping there and not being able to walk in. I am not giving my key back. I refuse. I simply refuse. I will keep it and someday I will go and wait until the new owners go to work and I will go in and see how my home is. It's funny how much you can put into a material object. Oye vey. It makes me really sad.

Work is going well. We are really busy. A lot of patients. I think that J may start there as a contingent RN. Extra money and I think he will really enjoy the work. There is going to be a big reorganization on Monday at my work. We are all moving. I am going from sharing an office with 2 people to sharing with 13. No I am not happy. But it will do. Most of the time I am out with my patients anyway.

Off to play with V and her friends that are over.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Miss my V

V is at her Aunt's house today. I will go and get her tomorrow. Funny how much you miss your kids when they are gone. J and I met at the movies to see The Departed. Pretty good flick. I got to look at Leo for awhile. But why did they have to cheese up the movie at the end? Did any one see this? You know what I am talking about. I was really disappointed. I thought the movie was great until the the last shot. Oh well.

One of my friends and I are planning a surprise. I can't say anything about it because I don't know who all reads this but I AM EXCITED!!

J is working again tomorrow. I have most of the day to myself. Today I did too but I stayed in bed a lot of the time. Overboard was on and you know I have to watch that each time it is on.

Today's cravings... tacos (fake meat), butterscotch pudding and watermelon.

I bought some maternity clothes today. On sale of course. I will keep the tags on them until we are in the the clear. Been thinking about that a bit as well. You know 1 in 5 they say.... I don't want to finish my sentence.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

On my mind..

So today is nine days after my niece was born. I know this doesn't sound significant to you. But to me- well, it is. I have spent most of the day lost in thought. Trying to keep J safe in my mind. You see it was nine days after my first niece J was born that Tad was killed. I know- not like it will happen again but there are certain things that I just hold on to. This is one of them. I knew it was coming but didn't want J to think that I truly am a nut case. He decided to drive to the other side of the state today for a trail meeting- I had a hard time getting a hold of him all day which left me very anxious- almost Ativan anxious. And you see, I don't think he understands how weird I get about this stuff. And I try not to talk to him about it. I don't want him to think that I am stuck- because I am not. I just love him and don't want to lose him. I just don't think I can bare it again.

So I get a call from J- I can barely hear him. Finally I hear something like "I'm stuck". Not knowing what he meant I tried to listen harder. I heard him say he was stuck in some mud. So great- I don't know where he is or what is wrong and his phone does not let me hear him.

Anyway- he ended up getting his truck stuck in some mud swamp thing while he went hiking. He ended up walking- trying to get to my sister's house. My brother in law found him. Thank goodness. But then he wants to drive home. I know this all seems so silly but I just couldn't let him. I got my mom on the phone and told her he had to stay. She must figure out a way to make him stay. I just want to get through this day. I want him to be ok.

And there are more of these days to come. I have already started preparing myself. Like when this baby reaches 4 months old. You know at one point I had figured out how many days old V was when T died. 133 days old. You have a lot of time on your hands when you are grieving. But all of these birth events- I can foresee some anxiety.

I lost one of my very favorite patients today. Cancer sucks!!

Thanks for letting me vent. Really I am ok- not really a nut case.

Monday, October 09, 2006

Rice Krispie Treats

So last night I was haunted by a grilled egg, cheese and fake sausage sandwich (of course with hot sauce). I went to sleep thinking about it, woke up thinking about it and immediately proceeded into the kitchen to make it. This is weird. I don't remember having so many cravings with V.

I feel like I am pooching already. I feel fat. All the tell tale signs of giving your body up for pregancy. I am experiencing them all. Fatigue, restlessness, hunger ALL DAY LONG, not wanting to work, placenta brain and complete mood swings. Poor J.

Here is another picture from the wedding we were at. V looked so beautiful- $45.00 hair do should do the trick...

back home

We love being home!! D.C. was fun. VERY EXPENSIVE!! But we had a good time. The weather did not do what we wanted it to do most of the time. But that's life. Here is a picture of us near the Washington Memorial (which we tried to go up in several times- no luck...)

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

The scoop..

So this is our new little one. You can see my full bladder which is on top and the little zygote is on the bottom right. The my uterus is the black cashew and the zygote looks like the worm inside of the cashew. So we are 7 weeks and 3 days along. Our due date is May 20. We are super excited!! Jeff was really cute when we actually saw the baby. This is hard evidence that we are going to have a baby. And that his sperm works. He was pretty proud of that... We are off to Washington D.C. for a few days- back on Sunday. Hope this picture makes you have to pee!!

Samantha Autumn

Isn't she so cute??? I love the little smile. Must be a toot...

Pictures at last

Can you believe I figured this out?? With the help of my friend CC. Thanks. I will update now more often since you can see belly shots... This is a picture from our honeymoon on the Oregon Coast. We go to the doctor today to find out more about our little zygote!!

Tuesday, October 03, 2006


What a great day!! My sister had a baby yesterday! Samantha Autumn (8:08 am, 8 lbs 2 oz and 19 inches long) and my friend A is pregnant!! I am so thrilled!! I go to the OBGYN tomorrow and will have more information then. Wonder where we are at. So thankful today. Babies babies babies!!!